In Transit. What is “home”?

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At the moment Drew and I are in transit. We are in between apartments. Neither here nor there.

So, I’ve been thinking a lot about the concept of home lately. What is “home” and where is my “home”?

Part of me still feels like it is in California and yet I know that we have left and that’s no longer true. Yet- if home is where the heart is, and my heart is definitely still in Pasadena, does that make Pasadena my home?

Home sure doesn’t feel like it is where I am now (Wisconsin, the place I spent the better part of my childhood). In the six years I’ve been gone so much has changed that I no longer feel like I fit in here. Don’t get me wrong. I love my family and it’s great to spent time with them. It’s just that I can’t remember where anything is located; and, the Midwest culture is so dramatically different from the California culture that we spent years adapting to, that it just feels off. Plus, we are living out of our suitcases, which definitely doesn’t feel like “home”.

Is my “home” perhaps now in Hannover, the place we will soon be living, the place that is supposed to be our “new home”? Although, I have yet to set foot there and feel no real attachment to the place, so that doesn’t seem right.

Home can’t be where our stuff is- otherwise our “home” would be either in a container on a ship somewhere in middle of the ocean or in my in-laws basement. Hmm. Nope.

Truth is, I have no idea where my home is right now, and because of that I feel a bit lost. It’s a strange feeling.

I plan to revisit the idea of “home” over the next several weeks. For now, share with me this:

Where is “home” for you? What is your idea of “home”?

5 Responses to “In Transit. What is “home”?”

  1. cec writes:

    I’ve never had problems with home-sickness, so I could have a different idea of “home” than others. For me, I think I feel most at home where my friends are (where friends can be family, too!). This means I have many homes, and they can constantly change. It also means I don’t like being alone, even in a familiar place.

  2. Zena writes:

    I can totally empathize with you. I have felt similar feelings in the past and came to the conclusion that my “home” was the feeling I have being with Rich. So where ever we are, we’re together, and that’s home for me. Cheesy, I know, but it’s gotten me through several moves now and I just feel comfortable where ever we are as long as we’re together. All the other stuff falls into place after that.

  3. Erin writes:

    I want your home to be with me in Pasadena, but it isn’t anymore. 🙁 (I still want it to be!) Just take solace in the fact that Drew is by your side, and he’ll always be home to you 🙂

  4. CM writes:

    Hi, nice blog you have, Congratulations! I got in here just by googling for a “B1 German Test” example. Then I took a look on your comment regarding “Home” and could not avoid sharing also my thoughts/feelings about that. I moved in Switzerland 4,5 years ago and I still do not feel really at “home”. I fly to homeland about 4 times/year, where I do have all my family and old friends. Interesting is that on the other hand, and by now I can not see myself living back there again ! This is a really strange mix of feelings like…not belonging to nowhere! Bye and all the best for you.

  5. Blue Cakes Blogger writes:

    CM- isn’t that strange how our concept of “home” changes? We are now almost to the one-year in Germany point, and although Germany no longer feels as foreign to us it still doesn’t quite feel like “home” (Our apartment does feel a bit more like home, however). Then again our old city back in the US is feeling less and less like “home” by the day as well. Fun stuff! 🙂
    Sounds like you may be taking the B1 German test soon, if so- best of luck with it. 🙂

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